The inspiration behind this blog is coming from a woman who recently lost a son. She has been such a inspiration to me because she is so strong in faith. I don't know if something like that ever happened to me if I would be able to stay so strong in faith. I find it so hard to stay in faith. To see that all these things that seem to happen in life only seem to happen to me and why me? That is what I find myself saying sometimes but then I think of this woman. I think of if she can lose a child and still be understanding of God for the time she did have with her son, then I can can be understanding for the problems in my life.  Realistically it is just a period in time that will pass. Life is not a book that you can read and understand. If only it was. If only you could pick up your life's book at the local book store and skip the chapters we didn't like and read the ending first maybe to even see if it is a book worth reading. My life is not better than anyone elses.  My life is not worse than others.  I know my life is exactly the life that God intended me to live. I know that the trials and tribulations that I am facing are the ones that God has wanted me to face. This woman that has inspired me to write a blog is someone I have never even met. Actually I wasn't even reading her story until she lost her son.  Because her story impacted my home town I was made aware of it.  Because her strong faith in God and her son's passing I then started to connect. I now find my self waiting for more posts from her. Feeding somehow off her strength. I can not help but think if this woman can endure such sorrow and be so strong in her beliefs, then maybe God was speaking to me through her.  Maybe God is speaking to me now and encouraging me to tell others my story and encouraging me to be strong in faith. To reach out to the Lord. To trust in him and put all my faith in him that he will see me through all my troubles no matter how great they are. If my faith and my strength is 1/2 as strong as this woman I refer to then maybe just maybe I will be saved as well.

Recently I had to go to child support court with my childs father. All the while I waited in that hallway with all these strangers I prayed. I held a small pocket size cross in my hand and I prayed a simple prayer that I googled. I simply typed in the words prayer for strength. I just now googled the same thing looking for that simple prayer that helped me during that stressful time and instead of finding it I found another. This must be the place that God wants me to start my story.

Prayer for Strength in Ending a Toxic Relationship

Dear God, I have loved well but not too wisely. I’ve given my heart to someone who has not honored that gift and I realize this relationship does not serve either of us. Please give me the courage and strength to end this relationship gracefully. Help me to forgive, heal and move on with my life so that I may open the door to new happiness. Amen

God never wanted me to be unhappy. God never wanted me to be suffering and worried and living in such stress. God wanted me to breath the fresh air he gave us to breath. To enjoy the beautiful creations he has planted her on earth. You know Butterflies are a great example as to our lives her on earth. We are born from a egg. We crunch and munch all our lives as caterpillars only to born in heaven as a beautiful butterfly. I really believe that our time to fly and spread our wings and live again is in heaven.  Being a christian I believe that God has better things in store for us, but in order to reach those things we have to first crunch and munch ourselves towards that glorious transformation. 

-Lori