I have extra minutes today to sit here and ask that God hear my prayers and guides me with his presence.  I need peace to come over my family and into my home. I pray that he hears me in Jesus name. Amen

So a very good friend of mine has referred a very good job my way today. Problem is summer months are approaching and who is going to watch my little one? Too bad all the years I was home raising my older two daugthers they can't give up a few days to help with the little one. If I get this job I can afford an apartment. Apartments here in south Florida are very expensive. Then newer nicer ones anyways. Forget renting a  house or attempting to buy something.  I don't have the money for that. I raise my girls on my own with not child support from the dads. Somehow God has always provided or my mom or dad helped with so much over the years. Unfortunately I am going to be homeless soon. Not sure where I will be laying my head at night. I wrote earlier that my ex was not paying child support. He is not. He hasn't for almost one year now. He lost his drivers license and is soon headed to jail unless he comes up with a certain amount.  Found out he was collecting food stamps from the government claiming his daughter lived with him. Imagine that?  I still don't know how good people all over the world struggle or suffer loss or hardship and criminals walk free.
I know that in life there is a thing called Karma. Do good things and good things will happen do bad things and bad things will happen. I always try to do good. I try and teach my children to do right by others. To always go the extra step to be thankful and appreciate what others bring to your life.  I am not perfect, I complain and sometimes forget what really matters too but I would never hurt someone just to hurt them.  I would never blame my wrongs on others. I own up to my faults and I break down when things go wrong.

I don't read the bible but i know that God is a good presence in our lives. If you put all faith in him things will be ok. I know if I end up on the street or living out of my car, God will provide the means to get by.  I dont think he will magically make gasoline appear in my car or magically put food in my belly but I think he he will give me the tools I need to do those things. This time in my life is just a stepping stone. It is temporary. I know with patience and prayer things will be ok.  Growing up a Buffalo Bills fan, (don't judge me) I learned that you can go to the super bowl and lose, you can go again if you try and you still may lose, I don't think even Jesus imagined you would lose a third time, but it happens.  Who would have ever thought that Jim Kelly #12 the all time QB would end up in a hospital bed fighting for his own life. He is a man of faith. He understands that this is what God has chosen for him. The Kelly family had already suffered a great loss, but did they give up? No, they still have faith that the things they are going thru are what God has intended.  I am not saying that God wanted Jim Kelly to get cancer, but he did want them to remain in faith and they have. I dont know all the right scriptures or even the name of most of the people in the bible. But I do believe in a higher being and that being is God.

Three wet dogs are calling me from Blogging...Have a blessed night everyone.